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Levels of Exposure

Over the last few weeks I have begun to realize things about my tendencies that I never really took much care to look deeply into.  Stuff that I normally just do out of habit or some random nonsensical reason.  I have been realizing more about how I express myself and through what medians.  Being an introvert I tend to keep to myself most of my opinions and thoughts when around a lot of people.  Since I dont really like to pipe in my thoughts in a conversation I am content with being in a room with other people and not saying a word the entire time.  Ok, I am diverting from my original topic of writing with this thought.

My levels of that I allow myself to be exposed would consist of the medians that I put my thoughts out at.

Most Personal to Least Personal

While in Oxford I took a my bible, journal and two cameras
 and just walked around Oxford!  Oh how I miss a carefree summer
  • Journal: When I have time, I write most every thought on those pages, this information comes straight from my heart and will probably be never read by anyone ever.  Therefore I lay down all of my pain and inner most thoughts in this place.
  • Intimate Relationships: In this setting I tend to open myself up to the degree that it gets me in trouble.  I can be too open in places that I should not allow myself to be unguarded.  
  • Deep Personal Relationships:  In conversation one-on-one with people I open up and show more of my inner workings but this takes some time and trust to be build before I start sharing.  
  • Distant Relationships:  These would be the relationships with people I only see three or four times a year due to geographical placement.  We are still at a level that I can be exposed even when we don't see one another often.
  • Acquaintances:  Most people that I interact with in group settings I can be very reserved only presenting a shallow perspective of my true person.  Over time if I spend lots of quality time in this setting I start to open up and reveal my true colours. 
  • Personal Blog:  I will post long thoughts that come from my Journal therefore this is personal information that is written to be seen by the public.  Therefore I monitor what comes out of my mouth to make sure that not to much information is divulged. 
  • Google Plus: I post pictures, random thoughts, and I "Plus One" lots of news articles and videos.  This is mainly just an outlet for all of the media that I consume while surfing the web.  If you want to know a lot about my public activity on the web just check my Google Plus.
  • Facebook:  Ill post big things on Facebook, but for the most part I try not to post things there at all.  I find myself trying to tell people certain things by my statues when I should just call then and tell them.
  • Twitter: I tend to post more just random stuff that is going down in my life.  For the most part I am very inactive on twitter.  
Also I post my personal blog on Facebook, Google Plus, and Twitter.  Soon I will explain more on my thoughts behind my posting and how it may be simply motivated by pride!

Well that is about it, I am not really sure why I posted this but I felt like putting some of my observations from the past few weeks into words.  Mainly I confine these thoughts to my Journal but for this I decided it could be valuable information to look back when I am older and my journals got washed away in the great flood of 2021.  

All is Great in the Lord

Paul Shackelford

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