Letters from Lilongwe

For the longest time I would torrent all of the movies, music, and whatever else I could find on the internet for free.  Being a student I have zero funds to buy all of the latest entertainment items.  Therefore it was simple and easy to torrent to my hearts desire and that has amassed about 15,000 songs and over 300 movies.  Now if some government agency reads this post then all of the evidence can be thrown in the river in a hot second.  Oh, a small philosophy that picked up; I would not buy the movie or music because I have no money, therefore if I torrent the media and watch it and talk about it with my friends and stuff then someone might go out and rent, buy, or probably steal the media.  Basically, I was not going get the media if I had to pay, so if I torrent it then I actually let the media hit a wider viewing audience.  Now I know that this logic has many holes so I have being pulling back on the reins in the past year.  While at Tech I only torrented three cd's because o

Great song - NOT, well kinda - I use to listen to this song while I drove around Chatham County on lazy days after high school.  For some reason I liked it and still do, I think its the line, "I Cant Make it On My Own".  That thought really resonates with me because I feel so often that I can make it on my own.  While trying to succeed in sports, academics, and relationships I would do it on my own.  I would make sure not to try an rely upon anyone, I would not ask my parents for advice or help.  Trying to be independent I would not rely upon or confide in my friends which I thus would reject.  My biggest regret in trying to make it on my own is not allowing God into my life.  I would say that I was listening to God and trying to live my life to please him and never acknowledge that I cant do it on my own. Now looking back through the lens of this song it makes me think a lot about how much we all try to make it on our own.  For me it took some down moments to acknowledge my

While in Bosnia I have been reflecting on this video and how it impacts our everyday life, interactions with people, and how we love others and God.  I did not find this video but I love the presentation of this amazing concept of the role of Christ to redeem our broken human nature, it its the only way for a God to get Justice.  That last concept has been my recently vein of reflection because it has my mind interested and semi-confused. G.O.S.P.E.L. from Humble Beast Records on Vimeo . All is Great in Sarajevo Paul Shackelford

Yes we are, I feel the effects of my brokenness everyday.  I try on my own strength to do "good" and live a life that glorifies God, but I fail constantly.  I know that the members of Paramore are "Christian" but I loved this song because it pinpoints our humanities existence as broken beings. I am outside And I've been waiting for the sun With my wide eyes, I've seen worlds that don't belong My mouth is dry, with words I cannot verbalize Tell me why we live like this Keep me safe inside Your arms like towers tower over me Cause we are broken What must we do to restore our innocence And all the promise we adored? Give us life again, cause we just wanna be whole Lock the doors Cause I'd like to capture this voice that came to me tonight So everyone will have a choice And under red lights, I'll show myself it wasn't forged We're at war We live like this Keep me safe inside Your arms like towers tower over me Cause we are broken What mu